The Feast

I ignite ,
under the moonlight ,
and all I need by my side ,
is this dark angel who is my bride.
Raven black hair flickers into the night ,
lust and desire no one could fight.
Behind those pitch black eyes ,
lies a devil in disguise.

I crave for every part of it ,
with every soundless heartbeat ,
the taste of her venomous lips ,
the soft pale skin under my fingertips.
Lust turns into frenzy 
and desire slowly drives me crazy.
These devilish voices calling me ,
setting my hunger for her flesh free.
There`s no need for truth or lies,
inside I know she`s my final demise.
Dancing shadows melt into one altered beast,
until the sun puts an end to the feast.

Flames Of A Dream

Walking around with no road to follow ,
with no purpose , arrongant and shallow.
The ground beneath me slowly breaks ,
I`m playing a game with no stakes.

Dreams consumed by whispering reality ,
hiding the scars that are left by calamity ,
Moments pass by and I reach for the sky .
Who am I to believe their lie?

Each word sticks to my mind ,
echos of hopes and dreams left behind.
Remnants of what once was my life ,
stab me in the back like a rusty knife.

A neverending play on this empty stage ,
curtains fall as I burn each page ,
flames run wild and take control ,
nothing but darkness comforts my soul.

And as the fire calms down ,
A new day , a new rising of the sun ,
once again the night held no sleep ,
and all that remains is the pain , burried deep.

My Colourless Path

"All worlds begin in darkness, and all so end. The heart is no different. Darkness sprouts within it, grows, consumes it. Such is its nature. In the end, every heart returns to the darkness whence it came. You see, darkness is the heart's true essence."

There are moments in life , moments in which hopes and dreams are everything that keeps us going or those that bring so much bliss and happiness that they make the past seem like a nightmare. Life is ever changeful and the moments we live through mark our very being . Some turn out to be exactly what they have strived for , while others fall back to who they where. For some time I`ve been falling back , I`m not where I want to be nor do I seem to find a way to break this dark circle. I was trapted in this dream which became reality and that reality became my own calamity. My words lost their colour at this very moment , they lost their strenght and wittered away. They are turning into remnants of my heart and as such they`ll soon turn to dust. You see I was writing because my heart told me to , I made my decisions based on what it whisperd to me. The place where my magic came from got silenced and the reason for that is , someones words.

My heart was my strenght , it was the fuel for my fighting spirit , I believed that , but belief like everything else in this world fades away , thus turning my strenght into weakness. That is something I can`t accept. Maybe it`s time to discard it because it stopped being my trump card , maybe it`s time to accept my not so bright side and live with it , because there are times in which the easy way out is the only option we truly have. Fairytale endings? they happen everywhere , all the time , mine is one of them , though the hero in this one embraced his role and decides to be the villain.

It`s not arrogance , it`s just ME

What does define a man? Is it the women he`s been with? Is it the number of "hits" he dealt? I am a man. I am a man who has no fears , I am a man who lives this life defined by his own regrets , I`m the guy some would tear appart just because my knowlegde scares most of my kind . You see for some I`m an anomaly , I`m the kind that would go through hell just to find an answer or a meaning , I`m the kind who fights for what he believes in , even if my belief turns out to be a lie. Some would say I`m stupid or that I cheat my way through life. I`m not searching for an easy way and stupidity is not I word I would even acknoladge , I just follow my heart , and at this very moment my heart shows me the past , my failures , my weaknesses and all the mistakes I made. You see my heart is different or maybe I am , because I decided to listen to it. At some point I lived for revenge , I dedicated my life to justice , my own justice ... because I felt like a God , because I forgot what it really takes to be human , because I forgot about the beauty that love brings and because of that my righteousness killed me inside. I lived a lie , I put a mask on and I keeped going on for several years , but I just played a role , I tryed to fit in a story which was not ment for me and so today I realise that my life is not my own. Really why would some other guy envy me? I think most are doing well as they are , I think being simple and not searching for a greater meaning makes you a man... and if you don`t feel like that I`m truly sorry for you. You see lately all I`m searching for is my own greatness and I`m going to pursuit that goal , no matter where it takes me , no matter how hard it will be , nothing and no one will ever stand in front of my goals or my hearts desire . You see this is not arrogance , it`s just ME.

HEARTLESS

I watched the stars and the moon tonight ,
wishing that my heart would turn out bright ,
but all I could get was an empty promise 
and the memory of a soul that I will always miss.

I felt so lost that I looked to my right ,
grasping for a shread of light ,
but all I saw was the same emptiness
and my soul got corrupted by darkness.

I listened closely all around ,
searching for that sweet sound ,
but all I heard was my lonely heart
and the way it slowly broke apart.

I started walking towards nowhere , 
because I always found you there ,
but I ended up inside my oldest nightmare
and the silance brought me to despair.

I promised to myself that it will all end ,
a promise written in blood which I`ll never bend ,
but the essence of life dried out
and all that remained was a dying shout.

I tore my weakness out of my chest ,
leaving a hole that will never heal , as a crest ,
but I released my greatest fear
and all because of you , my dear.

ASSimilation

Another day in Paradise? Not really ... I`m sort of disgusted of how todays society degenerates. It`s like living in a shelf in some soulless supermarket: waiting for someone to just put a price tag on you , waiting to be bought (accepted) by some bypasser or just being acknowledged for one second by some shallow , brainwashed meatbag. Let`s face it that`s what we are today , meatbags and the only difference is the package we are wrapped in. It definitely does not matter what`s underneath our physical appearance, the person we are , as long as we just smile and are pretty on the outside. Nevermind the lack of inner values or opinions ,as long as we drive a nice car , as long as we have a stuffed wallet , as long as we show more skin than clothes , nothing else really matters. I`m not saying that everyone is the same , but even those that have moral values , might fall sooner or later because society and the world around them simply will pressure them into it. I can remember a time in which being yourself was "fucking awesome" . Now everyone wants to be like the multitude , just so they can fit in. So the effect of ASSimilation takes place and slowly but surely we will live in a world full of mindless drones. I mean just look around you , take a walk and just watch the people that will cross your path ... I`m sure that more than half of the people you will see will fit the "meatbag" profile. 
Well to be honest at some point I stopped caring about this decadence , but after a long periode in which I started feeling like a piece of meat , something just lit a fuse in my head. Everyone just cared about my looks and by everyone I mean girls , and maybe I should be thrilled , but I`m not . Why...? Because now I know how most girls feel when some guy just hits on them , using some pathetic line like : you`re so hot , you make hell seem like it`s frozen. Really? Are you fucking serious? And I could go on and on , but sadly I just get remember of how I`m getting thrown in the "meatbag"zone.
Whatever ... I want to thank everyone that inspirred me , I want to thank all the clones and all those who forgot to think for themselfs and especially those who still don`t give a fuck about the pressure that`s put on them to fit in. 

End of Mankind

When the sun goes down on this wretched world,
everything dies out and ends up cold.
When screams become the noise of soundless sound ,
echos of lost shells hollow and bound.

When life spits venom on truth and reality ,
whispering lies of human brutality.
When angels lose their wings and end up blind ,
God forfeits hope in human kind.

When darkness becomes an excuse for lack of light ,
feelings disappear into the night.
When love and hate walk hand in hand ,
everything is swallowed by quick sand.